It is horribly terrifying in every sense possible. So many unanswered questions. So many questions that I will never be able to predict prior. Even making the plan is difficult. I have cancelled every plan I have made to hang out. What if they get fed up with me cancelling……
What if they judge me?
What if I try and they don’t?
What if they agree to hang out, have a bad time, then never want to hang out again even though I get attached?
What if they think I’m too fat to be a friend?
What if they think I’m not pretty enough to be a friend?
What if I have a panic attack and I start sweating profusely prior to excusing myself to the bathroom?
What if I’m left more lonely compared to how I feel sitting here alone?
………..what if it turns out fabulous and I make a friend for life?
Finding Happiness 
I have many of the same concerns…it sucks! But I have 2 very good friends who seem to accept me as I am, so if I can anyone can…..because I’m the least friend-worthy person on earth.
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Never think that you are mot friend worthy please.
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It’s true though, really
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Never going to agree with that, sorry. Just looked at your blog. Yes, I can see you have difficulties but I see nothing that should mean you have to be friendless.
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I’m not. I have like 3 friends who seem to get me, but I have a horrible and self destructive habit of pushing people away
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I don’t even have 1 friend now … ugh
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I’ve always done that too. Not any more.
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But I’ve failed so many times in the past 🙁
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I get that, honestly. Don’t feel alone please. You really aren’t. You have friends here for a start.
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So have I (failed( friendships and relationships even more six. People either pity me or just want to use me for a while
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I know those feelings. I have done my best to push through them recently with amazing results. You can too.
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It’s hard to make new friends but if you can get past the anxiety to try, you might have a great time an have new friends!
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