This time last year I was curled on the couch, four days since my last shower, pills in hands reach, with nothing more than suicidal ideations that were strong enough to zone out the tv volume of four, Family Guy. I wouldn’t get the “correct” medication until May tenth. Leaving approximately 126 days of sorrow… Continue reading 2017 Reflections
Come back No dream Sorrow pours deeper Than the black sea The heart of so many I’ve lost track Your smile so Sarcastic, sweet No judgement Acceptance between Think about me? Remember me? My mistake Question the truth Always missing you
Many words, sympathy and empathy are being passed around rught now. Below is a message from my hospitals regional COO highlighting the heart felt message from our CEO at PSJH system. Dear Kadlec Caregivers: The Las Vegas mass shooting is unimaginable in its horror. Dr. Hochman has drafted a particularly meaningful message below. Please share… Continue reading Hearts & Spirits go to Las Vegas, Caregivers, and Loved Ones
This isn’t me. At least, I don’t think it is? If it is the new me then I hate it! Ever since the roller coaster of trial and error with SSRIs, Aug2016-May2017, I have been recovering. Apparently my neurotransmitters process great, so when you increase them, I get significantly worse. Now?… Cognitive function is slow… Continue reading New Me?
I woke up due to my boyfriends mothers boyfriend staying with me in my house. He got up and my dog went into a spaz of excitement.Anyways. Now I’m up. Now my mind is spinning with thoughts, plans, an agenda for the day, fears, hopes, concerns. I’ve tried music, drawing, reading – all for a… Continue reading The 5:04 AM Post