I woke up due to my boyfriends mothers boyfriend staying with me in my house. He got up and my dog went into a spaz of excitement.Anyways.
Now I’m up. Now my mind is spinning with thoughts, plans, an agenda for the day, fears, hopes, concerns. I’ve tried music, drawing, reading – all for a distraction – all unsuccessful.
Now that I’m writing my mind realizes “hey! Maybe I shouldn’t fight against you… MAYBE you need sleep.”
But now my creativity has sparked.
I wish the instability would cease to end. I wish for one night of restful REM sleep.
I wish others were physically here to hold me, right now.
And I fully believe it is up to me to find happiness; it won’t just land on my lap.
How do you do that when depression is winning?
Is it true that impossibilities only exist in my mind???