At church this last Sunday, the pastor told us a story about how a man walked into his office years ago and said he wanted to kill himself. The pastor asked him why and he was met with many reasons – recently divorced, financial issues, his job is stressful, etc. The pastor shared with us… Continue reading Alternative to Suicide
Have you ever just cried? Like REALLY let it all out? Maybe in the shower, looking up toward where the water is spraying your face so that no one can hear. Yesterday night and tonight have been my crying nights. My counselor tells me that it is therapeutic. I’m not sure. I always come out… Continue reading Limitless Tears
I have realized that there are few things sweeter than a 10 month border collie snuggling in the morning. Her intentional movement to my side where she flops her head on my chest. Or how she licks my arm to inform me she is awake. My boyfriend is in prison for a dumbass reason…. so… Continue reading AM / PM Dog
I recently learned that your mind can reach REM sleep easier when you fall asleep to relaxing natural sounds. Who the fuck knows if that is true. Quite honestly, I’m too lazy to Google it. Here is my sound logic: I won’t research this fun fact but I will react quickly and download the first… Continue reading Meditation Playlist
Sitting up in bed against the headboard. With the nightstand light on. Listening to ambient rain sounds. With a puppy and kitty snuggled near me. Sounds awesome on paper. Well, in writing. In reality: I’m nauseous and borderline gagging, anxious and can feel my heart pounding, nervous of failure, dehydrated from not wanting to lift… Continue reading 4:25 AM Post
This isn’t me. At least, I don’t think it is? If it is the new me then I hate it! Ever since the roller coaster of trial and error with SSRIs, Aug2016-May2017, I have been recovering. Apparently my neurotransmitters process great, so when you increase them, I get significantly worse. Now?… Cognitive function is slow… Continue reading New Me?
I woke up due to my boyfriends mothers boyfriend staying with me in my house. He got up and my dog went into a spaz of excitement.Anyways. Now I’m up. Now my mind is spinning with thoughts, plans, an agenda for the day, fears, hopes, concerns. I’ve tried music, drawing, reading – all for a… Continue reading The 5:04 AM Post