… I will never regret. Each moment. Each judgement. Each subjective opinion. Each comparison. All the jokes, giggles, sexy looks, agreement on physical appearances of others, our mutual love of Capt. Morgan’s or Skittles or Sex on the Beach. All those transparent conversations about sex and debates regarding the best way to have sex. You… Continue reading I Will Never Forget…
Category: sorrow
Brain Voices
I try. I really do. I made myself get out of bed this morning. I made myself get ready to go to work. Then I fell to my knees crying. When you have a medication “cocktail” going on in your brain (Mental Health Genetic Test), there isn’t much to do. Or that you can do.… Continue reading Brain Voices
Fear of What is Next…
Fear. It can consume you. It can make the world stop until you finish dwelling on that same fear. Only, it doesn’t stop unless you control it. You may share this same struggle with me; the wonder that fills your mind; the question you ask repeatedly, “how can I make the world start again?”. Control.… Continue reading Fear of What is Next…
Working with High Functioning Anxiety
Hi friends. I had tried every online suggestion to manage anxiety prior to seeking medication. But the panic attacks. Excessive sweating. Debilitating worrying. The random striking of chest pain always continued. Is it wrong to speak up for this when at work? I feel like there is a fine line between your boss viewing you… Continue reading Working with High Functioning Anxiety
Inside – Out
Inside I feel pain. Outside I realize I am alone. Inside I see hope. Outside I sense a lack of faith. Inside I feel sorrow. Outside I feel numb.
Mindfulness in Depression
Have you ever had a provider say to you “just breathe”…… AGHHGHG. Right? It is more complex than that! Like all my symptoms magically go away when I take a deep breath. If it were that simple then I wouldn’t be sitting in your office… Mastering mindfulness takes time. It took two years until I… Continue reading Mindfulness in Depression
Crying in Public
Does anyone else struggle with crying in public? I have no problem at ALL crying myself to sleep or in the shower. Both are when I am all alone. However, when I am in public… I will do everything possible to hold that pain in. What I have learned over 30 years is that pain… Continue reading Crying in Public
Internal Hope
I think of the word “hope” and I must admit, I have no idea how to put a definition on the word. And I use it all the time. Hell, within my first blog, “My Personal Hell”, I referred to hope. In case you can’t place a definition on the word, here you go: an optimistic… Continue reading Internal Hope
My Personal Hell
I’m a master at experiencing debilitating depression; to stand in front of a mirror aghast at the anxiety pouring out; to spend hours on the shower floor filled with sorrow and crying for no reason; trauma so severe that my world is turned upside down and everything is stolen from me; and the ultimate experience, to… Continue reading My Personal Hell
Finding Happiness 