Darling, Let me tell you a secret, be gentle with me, For my heart hides, behind these green eyes. By a guiding compass, I would write to the stars, My triumph is to offer you unconditional love. When you feel unsure to trust, Recall I traveled across vast oceans of loneliness To be blessed by… Continue reading I Write For You
Finding Gratitude in the Dark
I had a very rough day. My body and brain are still trying to adjust to a rather crazy change in a mood stabilizer/SSRI and the side effects continue. Hallucinations, outbursts of crying, extreme depression and fatigue, and the occasional panic attack. It’s almost midnight and as I reflect back on today, I am grateful… Continue reading Finding Gratitude in the Dark
Learning to Love
It’s never easy to walk away, let her go. When you touched my heart, you could tell I was broken. Everything leads to – just walk away – but you love me. It will be okay. It will hurt. Bottoms up, tonight. Time can’t steal the love you’re born to find. Never easy but you’ll… Continue reading Learning to Love
This is me.
I have been struggling with the side effects of depresion and anxiety medications for a little over three years now. When I took a mental health genetics test through GeneSight it finally led us on the right path. However, no one could have guessed just how sensitive my system really is. I have tried over… Continue reading This is me.
Sunday morning! I don’t get many quiet Sunday mornings. The busyness of dogs everywhere and feeling the need to have an agenda to get things done. Exhausting! But this morning I am DONE with agendas. I am perfectly content taking my mild-depression to the couch with my laptop and coffee. Feels SO good!!! Side note:… Continue reading Sunday Morning
Internal Hope – Originally posted August 5th, 2017 I think of the word “hope” and I must admit, I have no idea how to put a definition on the word. And I use it all the time. Hell, within my first blog on this site, “My Personal Hell”, I referred to hope. In case you can’t… Continue reading Internal Hope
Dear Reader, I believe that everything happens for a reason. Do you? What DO YOU believe? Everything in my life has been a struggle. Does everyone experience that hardship? Don’t get me wrong, there has been a ton of good. A ton. A lot of happiness. Some joy. Some love. But nothing has ever been… Continue reading Dear Universe
What are you doing …
Hello Blogger Friends, I have a post that is a little different than my usual. I stumbled upon a book called “The Confident Woman: Devotional 365 Daily Inspirations” by Joyce Meyer while zoning out walking around Target. I was looking for some type of inspiration in the format of a book. This one called my… Continue reading What are you doing …
I try. I really do. I made myself get out of bed this morning. I made myself get ready to go to work. Then I fell to my knees crying. When you have a medication “cocktail” going on in your brain (Mental Health Genetic Test), there isn’t much to do. Or that you can do.… Continue reading Brain Voices
Fear of What is Next…
Fear. It can consume you. It can make the world stop until you finish dwelling on that same fear. Only, it doesn’t stop unless you control it. You may share this same struggle with me; the wonder that fills your mind; the question you ask repeatedly, “how can I make the world start again?”. Control.… Continue reading Fear of What is Next…