Finding Gratitude in the Dark

I had a very rough day. My body and brain are still trying to adjust to a rather crazy change in a mood stabilizer/SSRI and the side effects continue. Hallucinations, outbursts of crying, extreme depression and fatigue, and the occasional panic attack. It’s almost midnight and as I reflect back on today, I am grateful… Continue reading Finding Gratitude in the Dark

Learning to Love

It’s never easy to walk away, let her go. When you touched my heart, you could tell I was broken. Everything leads to – just walk away – but you love me. It will be okay. It will hurt. Bottoms up, tonight. Time can’t steal the love you’re born to find. Never easy but you’ll… Continue reading Learning to Love

This is me.

I have been struggling with the side effects of depresion and anxiety medications for a little over three years now. When I took a mental health genetics test through GeneSight it finally led us on the right path. However, no one could have guessed just how sensitive my system really is. I have tried over… Continue reading This is me.

Sunday Morning

Sunday morning! I don’t get many quiet Sunday mornings. The busyness of dogs everywhere and feeling the need to have an agenda to get things done. Exhausting! But this morning I am DONE with agendas. I am perfectly content taking my mild-depression to the couch with my laptop and coffee. Feels SO good!!! Side note:… Continue reading Sunday Morning

Prison Love III: Endure

Prison Love III: Endure – Originally posted May 24th, 2018 Here we are. Two years since I first stepped inside a prison to see him. What more is there to say. Has anyone seen the ending of Fifty Shades Freed? Where Anna watches Christian play the piano and she recalls all the most memorable moments… Continue reading Prison Love III: Endure

Prison Love II: Strength

Prison Love II: Strength – Originally posted August 13th, 2017 The question, “what am I doing?” rings in my ear every so often. It is answered by a warm sensation that lightly radiates from within my chest. My heart is in love. If you’ve been following my blogs, you’ll know that I have endured the… Continue reading Prison Love II: Strength

Internal Hope

Internal Hope – Originally posted August 5th, 2017 I think of the word “hope” and I must admit, I have no idea how to put a definition on the word. And I use it all the time. Hell, within my first blog on this site, “My Personal Hell”, I referred to hope. In case you can’t… Continue reading Internal Hope