Internal Hope – Originally posted August 5th, 2017 I think of the word “hope” and I must admit, I have no idea how to put a definition on the word. And I use it all the time. Hell, within my first blog on this site, “My Personal Hell”, I referred to hope. In case you can’t… Continue reading Internal Hope
Category: Fear
My 19 Year Old Kitty
[This image was taken in 2011 in her youth-ish years. I won’t post a picture now because it is sad to see her so old] Snip. My precious baby that I’ve had through all these years of struggle. I got her the year I was going into my Freshman year of high school. Every late… Continue reading My 19 Year Old Kitty
Resign?
November 14th – Day 1 after the funeral of my friend Amanda. Into the late hours of the 13th-14th, I was up all night crying, shaking, in denial, confused. When I awoke at 5am (after 3 hours of sleep) on the 14th, I couldn’t imagine how ANYONE would go to work. I texted my boss… Continue reading Resign?
I Will Never Forget…
… I will never regret. Each moment. Each judgement. Each subjective opinion. Each comparison. All the jokes, giggles, sexy looks, agreement on physical appearances of others, our mutual love of Capt. Morgan’s or Skittles or Sex on the Beach. All those transparent conversations about sex and debates regarding the best way to have sex. You… Continue reading I Will Never Forget…
Brain Voices
I try. I really do. I made myself get out of bed this morning. I made myself get ready to go to work. Then I fell to my knees crying. When you have a medication “cocktail” going on in your brain (Mental Health Genetic Test), there isn’t much to do. Or that you can do.… Continue reading Brain Voices
And I Wonder…
If a star has a soul looking down upon us. If there are sea creatures in the ocean that could sink a cruise ship. If each person did a random act of kindness each day, what the world would be like in one year. Ten years. How far away the nearest alien resides. How to… Continue reading And I Wonder…
Rethink Judgement.
Who are we to judge others when no one is perfect? Sorry to bust your bubble but you aren’t perfect either. If you WERE perfect then you’d be God. Oh my goodness, are you God? Didn’t think so… On my way to work this morning, I saw a woman jogging on the side of the… Continue reading Rethink Judgement.
Fear of What is Next…
Fear. It can consume you. It can make the world stop until you finish dwelling on that same fear. Only, it doesn’t stop unless you control it. You may share this same struggle with me; the wonder that fills your mind; the question you ask repeatedly, “how can I make the world start again?”. Control.… Continue reading Fear of What is Next…
Finding Happiness 