To Be Determined…

I can’t stop loving you. I am so unequivocally in love with you. And when I ask myself “why” I am left with the blessing of shame for not moving on as fast as you did. We loved each other very differently when we had our time. You lived in the fantasy world of optimism… Continue reading To Be Determined…

Internal Hope

Internal Hope – Originally posted August 5th, 2017 I think of the word “hope” and I must admit, I have no idea how to put a definition on the word. And I use it all the time. Hell, within my first blog on this site, “My Personal Hell”, I referred to hope. In case you can’t… Continue reading Internal Hope

Sunday Inspiration

Good morning lazy Sunday friends! Often on Sunday’s I am thinking, “ugggggh, tomorrow I go back to work.” I just now realized something SUPER shitty about that belief/feeling. I am so caught up on dreading the next day coming that I never live in the moment right now. I will waste my day anticipating tomorrow sucking… Continue reading Sunday Inspiration

Who I Want to Be: Evolution of Thought

If you read all the way to the bottom – you will notice one fundamental truth that evolves over time. Which is: I have became more confident in who I am and what I strive to be. February 1, 2017 Who do I want to be? I want to be kind. I want to have… Continue reading Who I Want to Be: Evolution of Thought

Perfection, Excellence… and Depression?

“Striving for excellence motivates you; striving for perfection is demoralizing.” – Harriet Braiker Perfection and excellence are similar but are polarized; perfection is on one end of the spectrum and excellence balancing the teeter-totter far away on the other end. But what happens when you throw a huge metal wrench in the middle called depression?… Continue reading Perfection, Excellence… and Depression?

Fear of What is Next…

Fear. It can consume you. It can make the world stop until you finish dwelling on that same fear. Only, it doesn’t stop unless you control it. You may share this same struggle with me; the wonder that fills your mind; the question you ask repeatedly, “how can I make the world start again?”. Control.… Continue reading Fear of What is Next…

Love from Within

I was listening to some random track on a random playlist I created years ago. You know, the kind of music you totally forgot about because you’ve been wrapped up in the catchy tunes from today. What I personally forgot is that my taste in music was stellar back in those days. Then it smacked… Continue reading Love from Within