Who Am I – A Poem?

A different place, different conversation. Still wanting to runaway now. Chasing my self, seeking my personality not found. Who am I? If I can’t have myself then you can’t have me either. Lost, hot damn. This river flows and boulders crash circling the tornado. At rock bottom, does the grass grow green? Glimmer before me?… Continue reading Who Am I – A Poem?

Food Will (almost) Always Win

Shit. It’s one of those days where it doesn’t matter what happens around me or what my mind decides to do or not do… I just want to eat. I need to eat. After 31 years I still think it is strange how a person can consciously know they are full AND still listen to… Continue reading Food Will (almost) Always Win

Sunday Morning

Sunday morning! I don’t get many quiet Sunday mornings. The busyness of dogs everywhere and feeling the need to have an agenda to get things done. Exhausting! But this morning I am DONE with agendas. I am perfectly content taking my mild-depression to the couch with my laptop and coffee. Feels SO good!!! Side note:… Continue reading Sunday Morning

Internal Hope

Internal Hope – Originally posted August 5th, 2017 I think of the word “hope” and I must admit, I have no idea how to put a definition on the word. And I use it all the time. Hell, within my first blog on this site, “My Personal Hell”, I referred to hope. In case you can’t… Continue reading Internal Hope

Chances with New Friends

It is horribly terrifying in every sense possible. So many unanswered questions. So many questions that I will never be able to predict prior. Even making the plan is difficult. I have cancelled every plan I have made to hang out. What if they get fed up with me cancelling…… What if they judge me? What if… Continue reading Chances with New Friends

Sunday Inspiration

Good morning lazy Sunday friends! Often on Sunday’s I am thinking, “ugggggh, tomorrow I go back to work.” I just now realized something SUPER shitty about that belief/feeling. I am so caught up on dreading the next day coming that I never live in the moment right now. I will waste my day anticipating tomorrow sucking… Continue reading Sunday Inspiration

Become Fire – Not Ash

Sulking particles Granulated dust, Swimming in the Ocean we trust. Neat and tidy Formed we spun, Bonded heavy to Form a ton.   Power lifts below. Cold transformed Into smoldering heat, A life you can beat… Yet unknown.   The myth be told. We unite and Not ready to fold. Burning heat Blazes in our… Continue reading Become Fire – Not Ash

. . . Workday Sept 6 . . .

ZzZZzzZ.. Does anyone else ever get the point in the work day where you think “holy crap – I am tired”? Following shortly after, your posture sinking down, hands holding your head up, and your eyes closing shut (you know the kind of closing where it is so rewarding yet feels so “naughty” because you… Continue reading . . . Workday Sept 6 . . .

Who I Want to Be: Evolution of Thought

If you read all the way to the bottom – you will notice one fundamental truth that evolves over time. Which is: I have became more confident in who I am and what I strive to be. February 1, 2017 Who do I want to be? I want to be kind. I want to have… Continue reading Who I Want to Be: Evolution of Thought