Category: suicide

Finding Gratitude in the Dark

Posted in ADD, anxiety, Binge Eating, Crying, depression, hope, Mental Health, psychiatric medication, psychosis, sorrow, suicide, trauma, Withdrawal

I had a very rough day. My body and brain are still trying to adjust to a rather crazy change in a mood stabilizer/SSRI and the side effects continue. Hallucinations, outbursts of crying, extreme depression and fatigue, and the occasional panic attack. It’s almost midnight and as I reflect back on today, I am grateful… Continue reading Finding Gratitude in the Dark

Learning to Love

Posted in ADD, Addiction, anxiety, bipolar, Crying, depression, hope, Mental Health, mindfulness, psychosis, self-discovery, suicide, trauma

It’s never easy to walk away, let her go. When you touched my heart, you could tell I was broken. Everything leads to – just walk away – but you love me. It will be okay. It will hurt. Bottoms up, tonight. Time can’t steal the love you’re born to find. Never easy but you’ll… Continue reading Learning to Love

This is me.

Posted in ADD, Addiction, anxiety, bipolar, depression, hope, Mental Health, psychiatric medication, psychosis, sorrow, suicide, trauma, Withdrawal

I have been struggling with the side effects of depresion and anxiety medications for a little over three years now. When I took a mental health genetics test through GeneSight it finally led us on the right path. However, no one could have guessed just how sensitive my system really is. I have tried over… Continue reading This is me.

Who Am I – A Poem?

Posted in ADD, ADHD, anxiety, bipolar, depression, Eating Disorder, Mental Health, sorrow, suicide

A different place, different conversation. Still wanting to runaway now. Chasing my self, seeking my personality not found. Who am I? If I can’t have myself then you can’t have me either. Lost, hot damn. This river flows and boulders crash circling the tornado. At rock bottom, does the grass grow green? Glimmer before me?… Continue reading Who Am I – A Poem?

Internal Hope

Posted in ADD, ADHD, anxiety, bipolar, counseling, Crying, DBT, depression, DNA, Fear, hope, MDD, Mental Health, Parents, Persevere, psychiatric medication, psychosis, self-discovery, sorrow, Suffering, suicide, trauma

Internal Hope – Originally posted August 5th, 2017 I think of the word “hope” and I must admit, I have no idea how to put a definition on the word. And I use it all the time. Hell, within my first blog on this site, “My Personal Hell”, I referred to hope. In case you can’t… Continue reading Internal Hope

Road Rage vs. Road Anxiety

Posted in ADD, Addiction, anxiety, bipolar, Crying, depression, Mental Health, sorrow, suicide, trauma

Can someone please tell me the difference? Maybe there is no difference. Maybe the rage is the trigger for the anxiety? Or does the anxiety trigger the rage? Either way, there is a catalyst propelling change in an arguably unpleasant outcome. Have you ever thought about it this way — the other driver(s) has no clue… Continue reading Road Rage vs. Road Anxiety

Without You

Posted in Addiction, anxiety, bipolar, Crying, depression, Mental Health, Prison, sorrow, Suffering, suicide, trauma2 Comments

Do you ever need someone? The type of need that forces one last breath without their presence? Without them you know your lungs will collapse. As your chest rises and falls, you know within each tenth of a second how acutely aware you are that you cannot have them. Worse? The fact that you cannot do… Continue reading Without You