hope – Finding Happiness

Learning to Love

June 10, 2019June 10, 2019 Posted in ADD, Addiction, anxiety, bipolar, Crying, depression, hope, Mental Health, mindfulness, psychosis, self-discovery, suicide, trauma

It’s never easy to walk away, let her go. When you touched my heart, you could tell I was broken. Everything leads to – just walk away – but you love me. It will be okay. It will hurt. Bottoms up, tonight. Time can’t steal the love you’re born to find. Never easy but you’ll… Continue reading Learning to Love

This is me.

June 10, 2019 Posted in ADD, Addiction, anxiety, bipolar, depression, hope, Mental Health, psychiatric medication, psychosis, sorrow, suicide, trauma, Withdrawal

I have been struggling with the side effects of depresion and anxiety medications for a little over three years now. When I took a mental health genetics test through GeneSight it finally led us on the right path. However, no one could have guessed just how sensitive my system really is. I have tried over… Continue reading This is me.

Internal Hope

March 17, 2019March 17, 2019 Posted in ADD, ADHD, anxiety, bipolar, counseling, Crying, DBT, depression, DNA, Fear, hope, MDD, Mental Health, Parents, Persevere, psychiatric medication, psychosis, self-discovery, sorrow, Suffering, suicide, trauma

Internal Hope – Originally posted August 5th, 2017 I think of the word “hope” and I must admit, I have no idea how to put a definition on the word. And I use it all the time. Hell, within my first blog on this site, “My Personal Hell”, I referred to hope. In case you can’t… Continue reading Internal Hope

My Mind

January 18, 2018January 18, 2018 Posted in ADD, Addiction, anxiety, bipolar, depression, Mental Health, sorrow, suicide, trauma

“My Mind” – June 15, 2017 Smart mouth Head Spinning Silenced Whip lash ends Despair withdrawals Beg for You To calm my storm Paramount Recovery of hope. Demons retreat, Almost.

My “I Don’t Want to Go” Letter for YOU

January 10, 2018 Posted in Mental Health

Hello Lovely Friends. I was mindlessly venturing around on Facebook when I stumbled upon a post that caught my eye. My friend shared a link and the caption is “‘I’m 27. I Don’t Want to Go. I Love My Life’ Heartbreaking Letter Written by Young Woman Dying of Cancer”. It may catch your attention too… Continue reading My “I Don’t Want to Go” Letter for YOU

Dear 2018 Self:

January 4, 2018 Posted in Mental Health1 Comment

Don’t get worked up over things you can’t change. Similarly, you cannot change others and it isn’t worth the anger, energy, or headache to try. Control only what you can. Let go. Let it be. Smile often. Cry when needed even if it is in public. Don’t engage in unhealthy situations that will be a… Continue reading Dear 2018 Self:

2017 Reflections

January 1, 2018January 2, 2018 Posted in Mental Health3 Comments

This time last year I was curled on the couch, four days since my last shower, pills in hands reach, with nothing more than suicidal ideations that were strong enough to zone out the tv volume of four, Family Guy. I wouldn’t get the “correct” medication until May tenth. Leaving approximately 126 days of sorrow… Continue reading 2017 Reflections

I guess I need a title?

December 24, 2017January 2, 2018 Posted in Mental Health3 Comments

I’m not sure what this post will be about. To be honest I’m confused and I just sat in the shower thinking that would clear the confusion? Since we are being honest.. I’m sad that I’m alone. I’m angry that my family is dysfunctional and I no longer fit into that dysfunctionalality where I was… Continue reading I guess I need a title?

Missing You

November 13, 2017 Posted in anxiety, depression, Mental Health, sorrow, suicide, trauma

Come back No dream Sorrow pours deeper Than the black sea The heart of so many I’ve lost track Your smile so Sarcastic, sweet No judgement Acceptance between Think about me? Remember me? My mistake Question the truth Always missing you

The One Who Holds the Stars

November 13, 2017November 13, 2017 Posted in anxiety, Crying, depression, Mental Health, sorrow, suicide

Everything happens for a reason. I’ve never met You but I know the truths that I believe in. I pray to You once in a while and I know You don’t judge me for not doing it daily or not attending church every Sunday (more like once every three months). You love every man the… Continue reading The One Who Holds the Stars

Finding Happiness

in Mental Health ✨

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