I can’t stop loving you. I am so unequivocally in love with you. And when I ask myself “why” I am left with the blessing of shame for not moving on as fast as you did. We loved each other very differently when we had our time. You lived in the fantasy world of optimism… Continue reading To Be Determined…
Who Am I – A Poem?
A different place, different conversation. Still wanting to runaway now. Chasing my self, seeking my personality not found. Who am I? If I can’t have myself then you can’t have me either. Lost, hot damn. This river flows and boulders crash circling the tornado. At rock bottom, does the grass grow green? Glimmer before me?… Continue reading Who Am I – A Poem?
Buckeklist from 2016
I just pulled out a little black booklet from late 2016-early 2017. Inside I listed about 200+ bucket list items/activities I want to conquer in this life. After all the change, growth, and development of new perspectives and forming new ones.. I was shocked to scratch out many things that I simply have zero desire… Continue reading Buckeklist from 2016
Alternative to Suicide
At church this last Sunday, the pastor told us a story about how a man walked into his office years ago and said he wanted to kill himself. The pastor asked him why and he was met with many reasons – recently divorced, financial issues, his job is stressful, etc. The pastor shared with us… Continue reading Alternative to Suicide
My “I Don’t Want to Go” Letter for YOU
Hello Lovely Friends. I was mindlessly venturing around on Facebook when I stumbled upon a post that caught my eye. My friend shared a link and the caption is “‘I’m 27. I Don’t Want to Go. I Love My Life’ Heartbreaking Letter Written by Young Woman Dying of Cancer”. It may catch your attention too… Continue reading My “I Don’t Want to Go” Letter for YOU
Dear 2018 Self:
Don’t get worked up over things you can’t change. Similarly, you cannot change others and it isn’t worth the anger, energy, or headache to try. Control only what you can. Let go. Let it be. Smile often. Cry when needed even if it is in public. Don’t engage in unhealthy situations that will be a… Continue reading Dear 2018 Self:
The Bridge to my Future Career
When I was in eighth grade I had a science teacher ask me “what do you want to do when you get older?” It’s one of those memories that is so distinct. You can remember everything. It was lunch time and me and best friend (Jamie) at the time would eat in his classroom to… Continue reading The Bridge to my Future Career