I’m not sure what this post will be about. To be honest I’m confused and I just sat in the shower thinking that would clear the confusion? Since we are being honest.. I’m sad that I’m alone. I’m angry that my family is dysfunctional and I no longer fit into that dysfunctionalality where I was… Continue reading I guess I need a title?
Category: Mental Health
Future Career
I see an office and I’m wearing a black blazer. And the office has nice furniture, leather, two chairs, a lounger thing, and a desk with a computer chair. The office has a tall vase with greenery. Its not a dark room but its not light either. I walk in the door each time happy.… Continue reading Future Career
Future Life and my Ramblings
Home – I want a house that I design. This house will have a three car garage and two bathroom sinks in the master bath. It will have a stand up shower and a Jacuzzi tub and a skylight window above. It will be a two story home. There will be a game room with… Continue reading Future Life and my Ramblings
The Bridge to my Future Career
When I was in eighth grade I had a science teacher ask me “what do you want to do when you get older?” It’s one of those memories that is so distinct. You can remember everything. It was lunch time and me and best friend (Jamie) at the time would eat in his classroom to… Continue reading The Bridge to my Future Career
Current Career
This blog is not for you (lol) – this is strictly for my own therapeutic purposes. Read at your own peril. I don’t want to work where I work or have the job that I have anymore. And it makes me feel like a snob. It is a great job. The organization however claims to… Continue reading Current Career
Road Rage vs. Road Anxiety
Can someone please tell me the difference? Maybe there is no difference. Maybe the rage is the trigger for the anxiety? Or does the anxiety trigger the rage? Either way, there is a catalyst propelling change in an arguably unpleasant outcome. Have you ever thought about it this way — the other driver(s) has no clue… Continue reading Road Rage vs. Road Anxiety
Without You
Do you ever need someone? The type of need that forces one last breath without their presence? Without them you know your lungs will collapse. As your chest rises and falls, you know within each tenth of a second how acutely aware you are that you cannot have them. Worse? The fact that you cannot do… Continue reading Without You
Go Now
Heart pounding Days and nights Sweet dreams – I gotta go now. Silent lies Move past the Past, where – you gotta go now.
What do you Want?
Have you ever thought about what you want? Sat, stood, laid down, skipped, danced, sang, ran, jumped and thought “what would make me love myself?” It doesn’t matter if you believe it is impossible or not. I’d argue that nothing is impossible… although, in our mind we believe that anything beyond what is comfortable is impossible… Continue reading What do you Want?
Resign?
November 14th – Day 1 after the funeral of my friend Amanda. Into the late hours of the 13th-14th, I was up all night crying, shaking, in denial, confused. When I awoke at 5am (after 3 hours of sleep) on the 14th, I couldn’t imagine how ANYONE would go to work. I texted my boss… Continue reading Resign?
Finding Happiness 