I picked my boyfriend up from work yesterday and he was very excited to show me his brand new shiny vaping pen. (uhhh what?!) He sensed my shock in his enthusiasm. So he explained that he has been having strong urges to smoke again ever since he got on his new ADD medication. And he… Continue reading Vaping – Safe?
Shit. It’s one of those days where it doesn’t matter what happens around me or what my mind decides to do or not do… I just want to eat. I need to eat. After 31 years I still think it is strange how a person can consciously know they are full AND still listen to… Continue reading Food Will (almost) Always Win
I haven’t been on here since February and it feels like just yesterday. It is incredible how so much heartache and so much growth can happen in a few short months. I’m still working through all my demons. Some days I am brilliant. Other days I pull myself out of bed. I’m still a little… Continue reading My Return
“My Mind” – June 15, 2017 Smart mouth Head Spinning Silenced Whip lash ends Despair withdrawals Beg for You To calm my storm Paramount Recovery of hope. Demons retreat, Almost.
I’m in a mood. I tried a new shampoo and conditioner and I am losing gobs of hair. By the handful. It is like I am chemotherapy again… AND, it was $25…. each… I woke up this morning and my roommates cat knocked over her plant. All over the kitchen. Soil, rocks, greenery, all over.… Continue reading The Mood.
Can someone please tell me the difference? Maybe there is no difference. Maybe the rage is the trigger for the anxiety? Or does the anxiety trigger the rage? Either way, there is a catalyst propelling change in an arguably unpleasant outcome. Have you ever thought about it this way — the other driver(s) has no clue… Continue reading Road Rage vs. Road Anxiety
Do you ever need someone? The type of need that forces one last breath without their presence? Without them you know your lungs will collapse. As your chest rises and falls, you know within each tenth of a second how acutely aware you are that you cannot have them. Worse? The fact that you cannot do… Continue reading Without You