It’s never easy to walk away, let her go. When you touched my heart, you could tell I was broken. Everything leads to – just walk away – but you love me. It will be okay. It will hurt. Bottoms up, tonight. Time can’t steal the love you’re born to find. Never easy but you’ll… Continue reading Learning to Love
I have been struggling with the side effects of depresion and anxiety medications for a little over three years now. When I took a mental health genetics test through GeneSight it finally led us on the right path. However, no one could have guessed just how sensitive my system really is. I have tried over… Continue reading This is me.
Shit. It’s one of those days where it doesn’t matter what happens around me or what my mind decides to do or not do… I just want to eat. I need to eat. After 31 years I still think it is strange how a person can consciously know they are full AND still listen to… Continue reading Food Will (almost) Always Win
I haven’t been on here since February and it feels like just yesterday. It is incredible how so much heartache and so much growth can happen in a few short months. I’m still working through all my demons. Some days I am brilliant. Other days I pull myself out of bed. I’m still a little… Continue reading My Return
“My Mind” – June 15, 2017 Smart mouth Head Spinning Silenced Whip lash ends Despair withdrawals Beg for You To calm my storm Paramount Recovery of hope. Demons retreat, Almost.
I’m in a mood. I tried a new shampoo and conditioner and I am losing gobs of hair. By the handful. It is like I am chemotherapy again… AND, it was $25…. each… I woke up this morning and my roommates cat knocked over her plant. All over the kitchen. Soil, rocks, greenery, all over.… Continue reading The Mood.
Can someone please tell me the difference? Maybe there is no difference. Maybe the rage is the trigger for the anxiety? Or does the anxiety trigger the rage? Either way, there is a catalyst propelling change in an arguably unpleasant outcome. Have you ever thought about it this way — the other driver(s) has no clue… Continue reading Road Rage vs. Road Anxiety
Do you ever need someone? The type of need that forces one last breath without their presence? Without them you know your lungs will collapse. As your chest rises and falls, you know within each tenth of a second how acutely aware you are that you cannot have them. Worse? The fact that you cannot do… Continue reading Without You
Food. The one thing that will calm the storm known as “hunger”. When in actuality, it is only comfort food. I always do it… grab the first thing to eat even though I KNOW I am not hungry. I’m tired. Tired is uncomfortable to me. I need to be fully rested to maintain a stable mood.… Continue reading Alarm Clock, First Thoughts
It is horribly terrifying in every sense possible. So many unanswered questions. So many questions that I will never be able to predict prior. Even making the plan is difficult. I have cancelled every plan I have made to hang out. What if they get fed up with me cancelling…… What if they judge me? What if… Continue reading Chances with New Friends