I recently learned that your mind can reach REM sleep easier when you fall asleep to relaxing natural sounds. Who the fuck knows if that is true. Quite honestly, I’m too lazy to Google it. Here is my sound logic: I won’t research this fun fact but I will react quickly and download the first… Continue reading Meditation Playlist
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IFS: Worthy vs. Perfection
If you’ve read my blog titled Internal Family Systems then you’ll know that I’ve done a lot of work growing my self-worth leading me towards a Self driven life. Yesterday in therapy, we started talking about my job and the issues I have with my boss not holding others accountable when I escalate issues to him. Now… Continue reading IFS: Worthy vs. Perfection
Breathe
I’m lost. I never added up. Suffocate to forget. Locked in my mind – Twist and turn. Instead, pain is amplified. Break free – need to breathe. Find a smile in my dream – Pain subtracted from My chosen state of mind. Let’s leave it all Behind.
Fear
My entire life I’ve never had anyone to inspire me or believe in me. Reflecting, the individuals that I thought had pure intentions were only concerned with their own intentions. To tack onto those statements, society is a complex dynamic. Each person is living with a different childhood, their own pain, their own beliefs. Have… Continue reading Fear
4:25 AM Post
Sitting up in bed against the headboard. With the nightstand light on. Listening to ambient rain sounds. With a puppy and kitty snuggled near me. Sounds awesome on paper. Well, in writing. In reality: I’m nauseous and borderline gagging, anxious and can feel my heart pounding, nervous of failure, dehydrated from not wanting to lift… Continue reading 4:25 AM Post
