ZzZZzzZ.. Does anyone else ever get the point in the work day where you think “holy crap – I am tired”? Following shortly after, your posture sinking down, hands holding your head up, and your eyes closing shut (you know the kind of closing where it is so rewarding yet feels so “naughty” because you… Continue reading . . . Workday Sept 6 . . .
Category: anxiety
Suicide: December 29, 2016
Have you ever been suicidal? My psychiatrist calls it “suicidal ideations”. What the hell is the difference? I recall being immobile in bed for six months straight. With one thought: it would be so much easier to not be alive; to not have to breathe one more breath. Because each breath kills you a little… Continue reading Suicide: December 29, 2016
Blogger Recognition Award
Thank you A huge thank you to Glimmers of Silver for her nomination – I am truly grateful for this recognition! Her blog encourages me to explore why I think what I think, what I do and why I do it…and at the end of the day, what is the meaning of it all? She… Continue reading Blogger Recognition Award
My Life
Beautiful mind, Lost and alone. The broken past, Chaos and control. Her heart of gold, Selfless and dull. My mystery ride, Inside and out, brings Self-discovery Untold. Quest for peace – the Tears and the pain Ache deep inside. Irrationality in control. String me along Until I fold. Question remains – Choose to live, in… Continue reading My Life
Presence
Alive Above ground Sink within At my worst In my despair You were there Search for air Let it fold Be bold The chores Before I broke Obligated To dream or Scream You were still there
Who I Want to Be: Evolution of Thought
If you read all the way to the bottom – you will notice one fundamental truth that evolves over time. Which is: I have became more confident in who I am and what I strive to be. February 1, 2017 Who do I want to be? I want to be kind. I want to have… Continue reading Who I Want to Be: Evolution of Thought
Pride
Eyes and heart Burn warm within Finally Connected Forgiving my sins Acceptance and faith Recognizes My charm, All along. Aligned toes to chin My mystery ride Begs for healing Of each scar Peace that I Keep In that – I embrace pride
The Dark
Is anyone else afraid of the dark? The unknown that lurks in the distance? That gut feeling that something haunting is in your presence? The sensation of hair standing up on the back of your neck? When I was about five years old, I remember my brothers locking me in a room, making me watch… Continue reading The Dark
One Wish
The next shooting star you see – what would you wish for? I’d wish for comfort.
Long Days
Working ten hours a day equates extreme exhaustion – especially when you just go off six months of medical leave. I pushed myself too hard and now I spiral down. Ugh. My boss has expectations and I need my job to pay my mortgage and bills…. but F*CK! I am trying to be optimistic so… Continue reading Long Days
Finding Happiness 