Dear Reader, I believe that everything happens for a reason. Do you? What DO YOU believe? Everything in my life has been a struggle. Does everyone experience that hardship? Don’t get me wrong, there has been a ton of good. A ton. A lot of happiness. Some joy. Some love. But nothing has ever been… Continue reading Dear Universe
Category: bipolar
What are you doing …
Hello Blogger Friends, I have a post that is a little different than my usual. I stumbled upon a book called “The Confident Woman: Devotional 365 Daily Inspirations” by Joyce Meyer while zoning out walking around Target. I was looking for some type of inspiration in the format of a book. This one called my… Continue reading What are you doing …
The Mood.
I’m in a mood. I tried a new shampoo and conditioner and I am losing gobs of hair. By the handful. It is like I am chemotherapy again… AND, it was $25…. each… I woke up this morning and my roommates cat knocked over her plant. All over the kitchen. Soil, rocks, greenery, all over.… Continue reading The Mood.
Road Rage vs. Road Anxiety
Can someone please tell me the difference? Maybe there is no difference. Maybe the rage is the trigger for the anxiety? Or does the anxiety trigger the rage? Either way, there is a catalyst propelling change in an arguably unpleasant outcome. Have you ever thought about it this way — the other driver(s) has no clue… Continue reading Road Rage vs. Road Anxiety
Without You
Do you ever need someone? The type of need that forces one last breath without their presence? Without them you know your lungs will collapse. As your chest rises and falls, you know within each tenth of a second how acutely aware you are that you cannot have them. Worse? The fact that you cannot do… Continue reading Without You
Resign?
November 14th – Day 1 after the funeral of my friend Amanda. Into the late hours of the 13th-14th, I was up all night crying, shaking, in denial, confused. When I awoke at 5am (after 3 hours of sleep) on the 14th, I couldn’t imagine how ANYONE would go to work. I texted my boss… Continue reading Resign?
Sunday Inspiration
Good morning lazy Sunday friends! Often on Sunday’s I am thinking, “ugggggh, tomorrow I go back to work.” I just now realized something SUPER shitty about that belief/feeling. I am so caught up on dreading the next day coming that I never live in the moment right now. I will waste my day anticipating tomorrow sucking… Continue reading Sunday Inspiration
Become Fire – Not Ash
Sulking particles Granulated dust, Swimming in the Ocean we trust. Neat and tidy Formed we spun, Bonded heavy to Form a ton. Power lifts below. Cold transformed Into smoldering heat, A life you can beat… Yet unknown. The myth be told. We unite and Not ready to fold. Burning heat Blazes in our… Continue reading Become Fire – Not Ash
Suicide: December 29, 2016
Have you ever been suicidal? My psychiatrist calls it “suicidal ideations”. What the hell is the difference? I recall being immobile in bed for six months straight. With one thought: it would be so much easier to not be alive; to not have to breathe one more breath. Because each breath kills you a little… Continue reading Suicide: December 29, 2016
My Life
Beautiful mind, Lost and alone. The broken past, Chaos and control. Her heart of gold, Selfless and dull. My mystery ride, Inside and out, brings Self-discovery Untold. Quest for peace – the Tears and the pain Ache deep inside. Irrationality in control. String me along Until I fold. Question remains – Choose to live, in… Continue reading My Life
