Beautiful mind, Lost and alone. The broken past, Chaos and control. Her heart of gold, Selfless and dull. My mystery ride, Inside and out, brings Self-discovery Untold. Quest for peace – the Tears and the pain Ache deep inside. Irrationality in control. String me along Until I fold. Question remains – Choose to live, in… Continue reading My Life
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Presence
Alive Above ground Sink within At my worst In my despair You were there Search for air Let it fold Be bold The chores Before I broke Obligated To dream or Scream You were still there
Who I Want to Be: Evolution of Thought
If you read all the way to the bottom – you will notice one fundamental truth that evolves over time. Which is: I have became more confident in who I am and what I strive to be. February 1, 2017 Who do I want to be? I want to be kind. I want to have… Continue reading Who I Want to Be: Evolution of Thought
The Dark
Is anyone else afraid of the dark? The unknown that lurks in the distance? That gut feeling that something haunting is in your presence? The sensation of hair standing up on the back of your neck? When I was about five years old, I remember my brothers locking me in a room, making me watch… Continue reading The Dark
Brain Voices
I try. I really do. I made myself get out of bed this morning. I made myself get ready to go to work. Then I fell to my knees crying. When you have a medication “cocktail” going on in your brain (Mental Health Genetic Test), there isn’t much to do. Or that you can do.… Continue reading Brain Voices
Smile – It’s Social Media
Friends – Do you ever encounter this? I’ve been told over and over again that I look “so happy”. But isn’t that a deception of oneself? The photo / status that that person is viewing often time isn’t real-time in the current moment. Meaning, it doesn’t reflect my current mood right now. Not to mention,… Continue reading Smile – It’s Social Media
And I Wonder…
If a star has a soul looking down upon us. If there are sea creatures in the ocean that could sink a cruise ship. If each person did a random act of kindness each day, what the world would be like in one year. Ten years. How far away the nearest alien resides. How to… Continue reading And I Wonder…
Rethink Judgement.
Who are we to judge others when no one is perfect? Sorry to bust your bubble but you aren’t perfect either. If you WERE perfect then you’d be God. Oh my goodness, are you God? Didn’t think so… On my way to work this morning, I saw a woman jogging on the side of the… Continue reading Rethink Judgement.
Fear of What is Next…
Fear. It can consume you. It can make the world stop until you finish dwelling on that same fear. Only, it doesn’t stop unless you control it. You may share this same struggle with me; the wonder that fills your mind; the question you ask repeatedly, “how can I make the world start again?”. Control.… Continue reading Fear of What is Next…
Love from Within
I was listening to some random track on a random playlist I created years ago. You know, the kind of music you totally forgot about because you’ve been wrapped up in the catchy tunes from today. What I personally forgot is that my taste in music was stellar back in those days. Then it smacked… Continue reading Love from Within
Finding Happiness 