I don’t know. The only thing I know is that maybe if I write then something will make sense. I want to write about every emotion feeling sensation image and see if I can get to an exile. I’m anxious. Constantly lately. Anytime I focus on my Self, anxiety is conquering the battlefield. And my… Continue reading Sort it out with Words?
On Nov 5th, 2017 I wrote a blog about how I have lost 36lbs since my life spiraled down in a direction that left me isolated, alone on my couch with nothing more than boxes of saltine crackers, tubs of frosting, a phone charger, Family Guy, and my comfort blanket. I gained 50lbs during that… Continue reading 42
This time last year I was curled on the couch, four days since my last shower, pills in hands reach, with nothing more than suicidal ideations that were strong enough to zone out the tv volume of four, Family Guy. I wouldn’t get the “correct” medication until May tenth. Leaving approximately 126 days of sorrow… Continue reading 2017 Reflections
Food. The one thing that will calm the storm known as “hunger”. When in actuality, it is only comfort food. I always do it… grab the first thing to eat even though I KNOW I am not hungry. I’m tired. Tired is uncomfortable to me. I need to be fully rested to maintain a stable mood.… Continue reading Alarm Clock, First Thoughts
From May 31st until November 1st. 36. I have been dieting and semi-working out. More so, trying to not drink soda or eat greasy food. For someone who has been addicted to soda since age five and someone who ate fast food five days a week the past eight years…. that is huge. 36 lbs.… Continue reading 36