Fear. It can consume you. It can make the world stop until you finish dwelling on that same fear. Only, it doesn’t stop unless you control it. You may share this same struggle with me; the wonder that fills your mind; the question you ask repeatedly, “how can I make the world start again?”. Control.… Continue reading Fear of What is Next…
Category: Mental Health
Love from Within
I was listening to some random track on a random playlist I created years ago. You know, the kind of music you totally forgot about because you’ve been wrapped up in the catchy tunes from today. What I personally forgot is that my taste in music was stellar back in those days. Then it smacked… Continue reading Love from Within
Do you love your parents?
In society, we are made to believe that we MUST love our parents. Regardless of what they do, how they act, who they are. Some would even argue that unconditional love is love that does not have to be earned; conditional love is love that must be earned? What if I don’t love them unconditionally… Continue reading Do you love your parents?
MDD and a Puppy
I am an animal lover. Borderline PETA type of shit. For most of my life I have had MDD. When I sought treatment and each SSRI messed my brain up more, I went into a tailspin. The highest high, and lowest low; all induced by chemical toxicity. When I went through manic moods I bought… Continue reading MDD and a Puppy
Working with High Functioning Anxiety
Hi friends. I had tried every online suggestion to manage anxiety prior to seeking medication. But the panic attacks. Excessive sweating. Debilitating worrying. The random striking of chest pain always continued. Is it wrong to speak up for this when at work? I feel like there is a fine line between your boss viewing you… Continue reading Working with High Functioning Anxiety
My Safe Haven
As a child growing up in a mentally abusive, addiction ridden, chaotic environment full of codependency, drama, and instability… I turned to basketball as my temporary refuge. I recall the second I would jump out of the car with my gym bag to run into the gym for practice; happiness consumed me. The days when… Continue reading My Safe Haven
Inside – Out
Inside I feel pain. Outside I realize I am alone. Inside I see hope. Outside I sense a lack of faith. Inside I feel sorrow. Outside I feel numb.
I Want to Remember…
The moment I decided I didn’t have to succumb to my parent’s expectations to be happy. The days that I decided to not kill myself. The strength I found in faith and hope when I was in the pits of despair. The moments that I put trust that my employer wouldn’t fire me during my… Continue reading I Want to Remember…
Meteor Shower Euphoria
That moment that you count how many shooting stars you can see in one night. Focused on how each one is otherworldly. How each one makes you feel whole; like there is so much in the world to live for and experience. After counting five, you stop counting. You watch in awe. You live in… Continue reading Meteor Shower Euphoria
Best friend Conversations
We’ve likely all had them. You know, the one’s where no one would understand. The type where if anyone else walked into the conversation, they’d think what.the.fuck. Here are two of my recent favorites! Conversation 1 with my best girlfriend: Her: “I’m going to lose my mind and I might go to prison for murder.”… Continue reading Best friend Conversations
Finding Happiness 