“My Mind” – June 15, 2017 Smart mouth Head Spinning Silenced Whip lash ends Despair withdrawals Beg for You To calm my storm Paramount Recovery of hope. Demons retreat, Almost.
I’m in a mood. I tried a new shampoo and conditioner and I am losing gobs of hair. By the handful. It is like I am chemotherapy again… AND, it was $25…. each… I woke up this morning and my roommates cat knocked over her plant. All over the kitchen. Soil, rocks, greenery, all over.… Continue reading The Mood.
Can someone please tell me the difference? Maybe there is no difference. Maybe the rage is the trigger for the anxiety? Or does the anxiety trigger the rage? Either way, there is a catalyst propelling change in an arguably unpleasant outcome. Have you ever thought about it this way — the other driver(s) has no clue… Continue reading Road Rage vs. Road Anxiety
It is horribly terrifying in every sense possible. So many unanswered questions. So many questions that I will never be able to predict prior. Even making the plan is difficult. I have cancelled every plan I have made to hang out. What if they get fed up with me cancelling…… What if they judge me? What if… Continue reading Chances with New Friends
Good morning lazy Sunday friends! Often on Sunday’s I am thinking, “ugggggh, tomorrow I go back to work.” I just now realized something SUPER shitty about that belief/feeling. I am so caught up on dreading the next day coming that I never live in the moment right now. I will waste my day anticipating tomorrow sucking… Continue reading Sunday Inspiration
Sulking particles Granulated dust, Swimming in the Ocean we trust. Neat and tidy Formed we spun, Bonded heavy to Form a ton. Power lifts below. Cold transformed Into smoldering heat, A life you can beat… Yet unknown. The myth be told. We unite and Not ready to fold. Burning heat Blazes in our… Continue reading Become Fire – Not Ash
ZzZZzzZ.. Does anyone else ever get the point in the work day where you think “holy crap – I am tired”? Following shortly after, your posture sinking down, hands holding your head up, and your eyes closing shut (you know the kind of closing where it is so rewarding yet feels so “naughty” because you… Continue reading . . . Workday Sept 6 . . .
If you read all the way to the bottom – you will notice one fundamental truth that evolves over time. Which is: I have became more confident in who I am and what I strive to be. February 1, 2017 Who do I want to be? I want to be kind. I want to have… Continue reading Who I Want to Be: Evolution of Thought
Is anyone else afraid of the dark? The unknown that lurks in the distance? That gut feeling that something haunting is in your presence? The sensation of hair standing up on the back of your neck? When I was about five years old, I remember my brothers locking me in a room, making me watch… Continue reading The Dark
Working ten hours a day equates extreme exhaustion – especially when you just go off six months of medical leave. I pushed myself too hard and now I spiral down. Ugh. My boss has expectations and I need my job to pay my mortgage and bills…. but F*CK! I am trying to be optimistic so… Continue reading Long Days