If you read all the way to the bottom – you will notice one fundamental truth that evolves over time. Which is: I have became more confident in who I am and what I strive to be. February 1, 2017 Who do I want to be? I want to be kind. I want to have… Continue reading Who I Want to Be: Evolution of Thought
Category: ADHD
Long Days
Working ten hours a day equates extreme exhaustion – especially when you just go off six months of medical leave. I pushed myself too hard and now I spiral down. Ugh. My boss has expectations and I need my job to pay my mortgage and bills…. but F*CK! I am trying to be optimistic so… Continue reading Long Days
Brain Voices
I try. I really do. I made myself get out of bed this morning. I made myself get ready to go to work. Then I fell to my knees crying. When you have a medication “cocktail” going on in your brain (Mental Health Genetic Test), there isn’t much to do. Or that you can do.… Continue reading Brain Voices
Smile – It’s Social Media
Friends – Do you ever encounter this? I’ve been told over and over again that I look “so happy”. But isn’t that a deception of oneself? The photo / status that that person is viewing often time isn’t real-time in the current moment. Meaning, it doesn’t reflect my current mood right now. Not to mention,… Continue reading Smile – It’s Social Media
And I Wonder…
If a star has a soul looking down upon us. If there are sea creatures in the ocean that could sink a cruise ship. If each person did a random act of kindness each day, what the world would be like in one year. Ten years. How far away the nearest alien resides. How to… Continue reading And I Wonder…
Rethink Judgement.
Who are we to judge others when no one is perfect? Sorry to bust your bubble but you aren’t perfect either. If you WERE perfect then you’d be God. Oh my goodness, are you God? Didn’t think so… On my way to work this morning, I saw a woman jogging on the side of the… Continue reading Rethink Judgement.
Fear of What is Next…
Fear. It can consume you. It can make the world stop until you finish dwelling on that same fear. Only, it doesn’t stop unless you control it. You may share this same struggle with me; the wonder that fills your mind; the question you ask repeatedly, “how can I make the world start again?”. Control.… Continue reading Fear of What is Next…
Do you love your parents?
In society, we are made to believe that we MUST love our parents. Regardless of what they do, how they act, who they are. Some would even argue that unconditional love is love that does not have to be earned; conditional love is love that must be earned? What if I don’t love them unconditionally… Continue reading Do you love your parents?
MDD and a Puppy
I am an animal lover. Borderline PETA type of shit. For most of my life I have had MDD. When I sought treatment and each SSRI messed my brain up more, I went into a tailspin. The highest high, and lowest low; all induced by chemical toxicity. When I went through manic moods I bought… Continue reading MDD and a Puppy
Working with High Functioning Anxiety
Hi friends. I had tried every online suggestion to manage anxiety prior to seeking medication. But the panic attacks. Excessive sweating. Debilitating worrying. The random striking of chest pain always continued. Is it wrong to speak up for this when at work? I feel like there is a fine line between your boss viewing you… Continue reading Working with High Functioning Anxiety