Here it comes. A post all about ramblings. Mostly to satiate my boredom. It’s gloomy and wet outside and everyone else in the house (one human and seven animals) are asleep. So what is a girl to do? Side note: My ADD has already distracted me from writing two times. Positive note: I just put… Continue reading A Rainy Day
Category: Mental Health
Food Will (almost) Always Win
Shit. It’s one of those days where it doesn’t matter what happens around me or what my mind decides to do or not do… I just want to eat. I need to eat. After 31 years I still think it is strange how a person can consciously know they are full AND still listen to… Continue reading Food Will (almost) Always Win
Ignored
Does anyone else ever feel like they are just ignored? When you need attention most… And it isn’t even “attention” so much as it is “acknowledgement”. He’s working on his business stuff (non-urgent stuff) on a weekend day when we agreed to have the weekend as our time since long hours are required Monday through… Continue reading Ignored
Sunday Morning
Sunday morning! I don’t get many quiet Sunday mornings. The busyness of dogs everywhere and feeling the need to have an agenda to get things done. Exhausting! But this morning I am DONE with agendas. I am perfectly content taking my mild-depression to the couch with my laptop and coffee. Feels SO good!!! Side note:… Continue reading Sunday Morning
Internal Hope
Internal Hope – Originally posted August 5th, 2017 I think of the word “hope” and I must admit, I have no idea how to put a definition on the word. And I use it all the time. Hell, within my first blog on this site, “My Personal Hell”, I referred to hope. In case you can’t… Continue reading Internal Hope
Today is Father’s Day…
Does anyone else have a father and they are not going to their Father’s Day celebratory dinner, BBQ, party, etc.? Because I’m not and I feel guilt. And I can’t figure out why. Other than I am a compassionate person. I was raised in a nightmare of an environment. It was so awful. And at… Continue reading Today is Father’s Day…
My 19 Year Old Kitty
[This image was taken in 2011 in her youth-ish years. I won’t post a picture now because it is sad to see her so old] Snip. My precious baby that I’ve had through all these years of struggle. I got her the year I was going into my Freshman year of high school. Every late… Continue reading My 19 Year Old Kitty
Lifestyle Change
I don’t want to lose my progress. I’m scared to fail. I won’t gain 65lbs back. I know it is hard work. I know it will suck to get back on track. It doesn’t help to cry and procrastinate. I’m scared. I’m scared I will fall back forever. I’m scared I don’t have the willpower… Continue reading Lifestyle Change
My Return
I haven’t been on here since February and it feels like just yesterday. It is incredible how so much heartache and so much growth can happen in a few short months. I’m still working through all my demons. Some days I am brilliant. Other days I pull myself out of bed. I’m still a little… Continue reading My Return
Alright?
2.12.18 Legendary or Ordinary? Scrap and fight For love – One embrace Soul trembling Thunder crashing Rolling thru two hearts Let loose What do we lose? Shaken But not broken Your presence Always with me Astral dream You see me You will never Love me more Never let me go I beg – I plead… Continue reading Alright?
Finding Happiness 