“My Mind” – June 15, 2017 Smart mouth Head Spinning Silenced Whip lash ends Despair withdrawals Beg for You To calm my storm Paramount Recovery of hope. Demons retreat, Almost.
Tag: anxiety
Spontaneity Feels GOOD
Until approximately 110 minutes ago, my hair was purple on top and faded into light purple and pink at the bottom. Now. I have dark brown on top and an ombré into platinum blonde. Change!!!
My “I Don’t Want to Go” Letter for YOU
Hello Lovely Friends. I was mindlessly venturing around on Facebook when I stumbled upon a post that caught my eye. My friend shared a link and the caption is “‘I’m 27. I Don’t Want to Go. I Love My Life’ Heartbreaking Letter Written by Young Woman Dying of Cancer”. It may catch your attention too… Continue reading My “I Don’t Want to Go” Letter for YOU
Dear 2018 Self:
Don’t get worked up over things you can’t change. Similarly, you cannot change others and it isn’t worth the anger, energy, or headache to try. Control only what you can. Let go. Let it be. Smile often. Cry when needed even if it is in public. Don’t engage in unhealthy situations that will be a… Continue reading Dear 2018 Self:
Letter to Me: Future
Dear Future Self, Wow. Be proud. Be humble. And continue to endure. You’ve come a long way and you still have a long way to go. Take a breath and slow down. Stand in the sun and just be, just feel. And do it right now, don’t always wait until tomorrow or the next day… Continue reading Letter to Me: Future
Permanent-Mindlessness-Distraction?
I strongly believe that everyone needs downtime every now and then. In fact, my counselor advises to take “me time” after a really long day, stressful experience, or during any of those outbursts of anxiety. It helps to ease the mind and distract me. My issue now is that I’m flirting with that fine line… Continue reading Permanent-Mindlessness-Distraction?
No Energy Competing with Goals
Blogmates, How do you find energy to pursue life goals and to make it through the day when it is so.freakin.exhausting just…. being? Or do you do what I do which is: find a mindless activity (usually zoning out on Pinterest or binging on Grey’s Anatomy reruns for me personally) and then consider yourself “busy”… Continue reading No Energy Competing with Goals
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On Nov 5th, 2017 I wrote a blog about how I have lost 36lbs since my life spiraled down in a direction that left me isolated, alone on my couch with nothing more than boxes of saltine crackers, tubs of frosting, a phone charger, Family Guy, and my comfort blanket. I gained 50lbs during that… Continue reading 42
2017 Reflections
This time last year I was curled on the couch, four days since my last shower, pills in hands reach, with nothing more than suicidal ideations that were strong enough to zone out the tv volume of four, Family Guy. I wouldn’t get the “correct” medication until May tenth. Leaving approximately 126 days of sorrow… Continue reading 2017 Reflections
I guess I need a title?
I’m not sure what this post will be about. To be honest I’m confused and I just sat in the shower thinking that would clear the confusion? Since we are being honest.. I’m sad that I’m alone. I’m angry that my family is dysfunctional and I no longer fit into that dysfunctionalality where I was… Continue reading I guess I need a title?
Finding Happiness 